my mom was the bravest most caring person anyone could ever wish to meet.i miss you mom so much, what i would give to turn the clock back! kirsty,holly and demi talk to you everyday i prey you can hear them and am with us as we tackle each day. you sufferd so much, no one deserves what you went through. why do we feel so angry, is it because of what you went through in life, u suffered with depression,the anxiety you had ment that you was sometimes to scared to even leave the house,i think if im bein honest here thats the main thing that helps me get through the day. i like to believe you walk with us now, the fear has gone...........or do we feel angry because god took you from us to soon. lucys 6months now,its going to be so hard for us all, when i was pregnant all i wanted with me was you,you know that.you was looking so forward to becoming a gannie agan. this pregnacy is going well for her. you know what shes been through when she lost the last 2 babies,you was her strength back then, you always knew what to do and say,she proberbly wouldnt of got through them times without you.we never thought you wouldnt be here to get her through this 1.... i prey for her everyday.. sallys working now, shes doing well, the lads am getting big now,she tells them about you all the time,this is so unfair,you should be here to watch them grow, you lived for your kids and grandkids,it breaks my heart everytime little demi learns somethin new, id always rush down to your house and show you what shes learnt............................... mom its gonna take all of my life to get over loosin you..... any way mom, give gran a love and kiss from us all. xxxxxxxxxxxxx