mom, i knew this day was gonna come, its the 1st birthday without you. iv been down to your stone,sat & talked with you for a bit. this has been the 1st year iv had to get you flowers, you never was a flower person was you, i hope you like the little aunoment i got for you, i think it looks just like you, a woman with long hair sittin in the palm of someones hands and the words on it say 'in safe hands' grandads up their with you now, i know you & gran came to meet him, we had a little service for him today at the cemetary where you & gran am, kirstys doing ok, shes a teenager soon, holly still asks me questions about you, she dosnt understand and im no help when i try & explain things to her, she played up to go on the london i a few weeks ago when we treated the kids to a day in london,she kept sayin that when she gets to the top she will be able to see you because its so high, she said she was gonna hold your hand & bring you back to us where you belong, it breaks my heart to hear the things she says sometimes,shes only 5 & must be so confussed, demis gettin bigger & cheekier by the day, i get upset when she learns somethin new, cus id always bring her down to you so you can see what shes learnt, i think about you & talk about you everyday mom....theres not a day since you passed that iv not cried for you, happy birthday my mom, i love you....... stay close to us, we need to feel you. xxxxxxxxxx